Saturday, January 22, 2011

Time goes on and on and on...

My babies are growing up. In some ways, it's exciting. In others, I'm a typical mom-trying to hold on to my babies forever. ♥

Today we lowered the mattress on Katelyn's crib. She was able to pull herself up-and we feared over- the side rail. This means I can no longer just lean over and kiss her sleeping cheek. I will miss that until she's in a real bed someday.

Today also marks the first day she was completely unwilling to eat baby food. For the past couple days we can squeeze in a bite or 2 here and there. Today-lunch to be exact- had to be table food. NO baby food. She had 2 helpings of peas, a helping of pears, some cottage cheese and ham. She didn't do too well with the ham, but not TOO bad either. I'm trying to remember what I fed Kaden at this age! Lots of veggies, crackers, noodles, and such.

On a similar note, she is VERY into Kaden's sippy. If it is in the room then that is ALL she wants. So, today, we gave her her very own sippy cup. She was thrilled.

As for Kaden, we got him his new booster car seat last night. It's the kind that just repostions the seat belt to fit him better. He tried it out by going to Home Depot with Daddy this morning. I don't think he even noticed it was different. I had to go put him back in it in his pajamas to get this pic. He thought it was weird, and didn't cooperate very well!

As for Luke and I, there is no development to report. Probably more like getting older and falling apart kind of stuff. But I'll spare you!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

♥ Luke ♥

I love my husband ♥ I realized I post all about my kids...but...I love my husband so so much and I just wanted everyone to know that!

I ♥ his name.
I ♥ his easy going personality.
I ♥ (LOVE) that it's hard to make him mad!
I ♥ watching him play with our kids.
I ♥ that he can order my favorite subway sandwich from memory, and get it right every time.
I ♥ his fabulous looks!
I ♥ that he knows exactly how to tick me off instantly because it means he knows me so well.
I ♥ how stinkin' smart he is!
I ♥ that he likes to cook with me.
I ♥ that he has complete intergrity.
I ♥ that he knows my biggest weaknesses (like my grande, decaf, nonfat, white chocolate pumpkin latte, no foam, please.)
I ♥ that he is athletic (and looks like it!)
I could go on and on...I just love everything about that man.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Two and a Half already!

Kaden is 2 1/2 years old today. He's still young enough to count in half years, right? He is such a bright spot in my world! He's my alarm clock (and if I'm already awake, he makes sure I'm WIDE awake and ready to go!) He's my conversation piece - I am so bad at meeting new people, but not him. And he drags me into it with him! He's a tease. Just today he figured out that Kate was crawling after him for the toy he had, so -with a giggle and a grin- he took off, teasing her all the while with the toy. She wasn't impressed, but he was. He's so smart! He told me the other day that he would need a plane to get to the clouds, but a rocket to get to the "moons and stars." He told Brittany today that she should go to Kmart and get a carseat for her car so he could go places with her. And he's sure to correct me on what things are EXACTLY. ("Food" does NOT cut it. It's "peas" or "macaroni and cheese" or any other specific.) He's my drama boy. Everything he does is done with his whole heart, and when it doesn't go as planned, it's a major crisis. He's my favorite little boy.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

2010 Christmas Letter

Dear friends and family,

Merry Christmas! And, by the time you get this Happy New Year! For us it has been a crazy and growing year in so many ways. We are looking forward to 2011.
We had our baby girl! Katelyn Joy was born on April 28- 2 days before her due date. (7lb 1oz for those who care!) What a difference from Kaden! Everything from being born early, smaller, and easier to looking, acting, and reacting differently! Basically, if Kaden liked/did it, she does not…and vice versa. “Katelyn” means “Pure” and she has TRULY been a Pure Joy. She is 8 months old today and so close to crawling. She is as laid-back as they come and her favorite thing is to laugh with her big brother. Her big blue eyes get her a lot of attention. She loves to smile, and talk to people, but mostly only from the safety of Mommy’s arms! She has already had 2 ER visits which resulted in a few tests in Rapid City to make sure her kidneys/bladder are working properly. In December she was declared healthy and that was a big relief for all of us.
Our Kaden-boy turned 2 in July! Kaden is still just as fun-loving and outgoing as ever. We sometimes wonder how he can talk so much and he is constantly praised for his vocabulary. Sometimes his mom wishes for some silence. He adores his baby sister and has been nothing but nice to her. In September, Kaden decided he was done with diapers. It took about 3 weeks to feel that he was truly potty trained. Bethany feels blessed to have had it so easy. He loves Diego, church, MOPS, trucks with trailers, trains, and almost every food. He’s been sick almost constantly since the end of August (which doesn’t seem to slow him down a whole lot) and we are in the process of finding out if he has allergies or tonsil problems.
Luke has been a busy guy this year (and thankfully, mostly healthy!). He still works for PCA Engineering, and still enjoys it. This year he was on the Youth Pastor Search, Budget, and Counting Committees for our church. He enjoyed playing basketball on a team from PCA, and softball with the church team. He didn’t have a lot of time for hunting since the family decided to be sick all at once. When he isn’t at work, church, or taking care of kids, Bethany keeps him busy fixing up the house. This year’s projects: painting/repairing the dining room and kitchen and putting in new flooring. Let’s just say it wasn’t as simple as it sounds. At all. He is rethinking his “One Project A Year Rule” –We may not have a project in this new year! (Except for the hail damaged windows that need replaced, and a few “small” projects from said hail damage. Ha!)
Bethany is busier now with the 2 kids, and is involved with MOPS, Director of the Church nursery, Bible Studies, Pampered Chef shows and 2 cooking clubs, and attempting to keep up with home life. After many problems during her pregnancy it was decided that her gallbladder must be removed. In July, she had surgery to remove it and feels so much better. The highlight of her year was her purchase of a Cricut Expression which enabled her to put together a “50 Years of Memories” scrapbook for a surprise 50th Anniversary party for her grandparents. She is looking forward to working on both Kaden and Kate’s baby books “someday when life slows down a little.” (It has been said that “someday” is the code-word for “never.”)
We were able to spend time with many family members and friends throughout the year. Bethany’s parents were able to come help out both after the birth of Kate, and after Bethany’s surgery. Luke’s mom also came after the surgery (for the 2nd week) and his parents came to watch kids while we attended a Weekend to Remember conference in Rapid City. (Which we both highly recommend!) In February, Bethany’s friend Rachel came from Oklahoma for a few days. She came again in October, this time with her dad (Bill) and brother (Nate) from Arkansas. Rachel kept Bethany and the kids busy and entertained while Bill & Nate hunted the wild west of Wyoming. Both were successful and we made some good memories and ate some good food.  In May, when Katelyn was 2 weeks old, we made a quick trip to MT for the funeral of Luke’s Grandmother. It was a bittersweet trip. It is always hard to say goodbye, but it brought together family from all directions and it was fun to visit with them. We made another trip to MT for the 4th of July-this time for the wedding of Luke’s high school friend.
We spent about 10 days in MT for our Christmas vacation, splitting that time between both sets of parents. It was a busy and fun-filled time with Christmas celebrations, a 50th anniversary party, coffee, sledding, food (aka cooking) and a great lack of sleep. We were reminded how important family is-especially family built on the foundation of Jesus Christ-that baby born to set us free. We are truly blessed.
With Love from the Antonich’s


Kaden Kwotes:
• As Luke was putting Kaden to bed one night: “It’s dark in here, Daddy! I can’t see my eyes.”
• After one of the first snows of the year. Kaden: “Oooh Nooo!” Mom: “What’s wrong, Kaden!” Kaden: “Park dirty!” For the longest time he refused to call it snow. It was “snowdirt.”
• First snow of the season I took Kaden out to play. The first thing he said was “Mommy, I can EAT it!”
• One night Luke had popped my toes. After a minute Kaden’s shoes and socks were off, and his foot in Luke’s lap: “Daddy, break MY toes!” Then the very next night he had a babysitter and he started pulling on her finger and telling her “Kaden break your finger!” At first, she was horrified.
• We tore up the kitchen floor one night after Kaden went to bed. In the morning he stopped mid-run into the kitchen. “Oh No! Floor broken!”
• Kaden talking to a friend at church who is bald on top: Kaden: “What’s this?” Earl: “My mustache.” Kaden, pointing to his mustache then to his bald head: “That go on there.”
• Kaden tossed a ball to Katelyn (who had learned to sit only earlier that week) and it hit her in the face and tipped her over. “Uh oh, baby. Try again.”

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Meet: My Family. The People You Never Knew You Needed to Know

I'm sitting here thoroughly enjoying the kids' naptime. I don't really have a lot to say, but it just seemed appropriate to blog while the kids were down! So, I think I'll post some pictures to inspire me!

Picture #1
These are my amazing Grandparents. They "adopted" our family the same time I was born and have loved on us ever since. In some ways they are the "realest" grandparents I've known! I just love them. They celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary in June and that was what I was making the scrapbook for. We had a surprise party for them on December 26th and it was a complete hit. AND every family member (all 28 of us) was able to be there for the special party. At the end we gave them money to buy some recliners and we could tell it had meant a lot to them. Its memories I'll never 0forget.

Picture #2
This is My immediate family with Grandma and Gramps...my how we've grown. Wish I had an old pic for comparison. But I am just to lazy to ever scan in pictures!

Picture #3
This is my Grandparents with their real family...kids and grandkids. There's a lot of them too...it's fun to look back and pictures of their girls with us as babies, then of us with their kids as babies, and now their kids with my babies...

Picture #4
Meet my twin brother Brandon. Yes. My twin. But older by 5 minutes. I show you his picture first because I want you to notice how we look the least alike of anyone in my family. We are as different as Kaden and Katelyn are different. I like having a twin now. I didn't think much of it growing up. Would I want to have twins? Never. Anyway, for all you single ladies reading-he is 26 and single. Great catch if you ask me...just sayin'!

Picture #5
Meet my brother Jeremy. (He's the one ON the rocking horse.)He's the middle child. He's also the one I blame Kaden on! A talker and debate-master. A pro at both, really. It was fun to see how much Kaden is like him (and how much he will deny that) while we were together at Christmas. Jeremy tries to live in Never Never Land and never wants to grow up (if you couldn't tell by the picture), His wife Allison is good for him.

Picture #6
Meet Andrew. He's my 2nd to oldest brother. He was too busy playing with my kids to get a picture of just him. Andrew's the dare-devil, fearless one. He says I'm just a worry wort. I think he's crazy. I guess we're even. Also a great catch....

Picture #7
And finally...Meet Aaron. He's my oldest brother. (Yes...4 if you counted right...all older.) He's the engineer. The level head. The thinker of the family. He has some pretty cute little boys too... This is a self portrait. Let's just say he's better at scenery. Also, yes, that is me in the background. Blerg.

Picture #8
I guess I shouldn't leave off my parents. So here they are...my mom and dad. They are pretty cool grandparents and adore all 4 grandchildren. Mom cooks up a storm whenever we're all home and I feel bad that she works so hard. Dad's usually found in his garage or with his stereo sytsem with one of "the boys." (they hate when I call them that.) THey keep saying they are going to retire...but I'll believe it when I see it.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

broke

I cried today. (a lot)

Right after I told my mother in law that I hate to cry and rarely do because my face breaks out into this mass of broken blood vessels and swollen eyes.

It doesn't really matter what I cried about or why. What I learned is that after the kind of stress I've been feeling..which several previous posts have given you glimpses of...sometimes you just gotta let it out.

On Tuesday the surgeon called to say that the lump wasn't cancer-or any other horrible thing- and this was the last "big" thing stressing me out. After the call I expected to feel this immediate relief from all things stress. This great weight lifted off my shoulder. A weight of stress that started in the beginning of November (really, earlier if I'm to be completely honest) and just built from what seemed like all sides. But I didn't feel it. I expected to have all this uncontrollable energy, boundless smiles, and carefree thoughts. When I got the call, yah, i smiled, and yah i was excited...but then I was just exhausted. I didn't feel any different.

Now, to be fair, not all the stress in my life was "bad" stress. Like the scrapbook and deadline. That was really fun to do, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. But, still stress. Some of the other stress of relationships (family and friends), illness/tests (for 3 out of 4 of us) and money were unavoidable, and bad stress. Still other parts of my stress level were avoidable and totally my own fault. I kept a lot to myself to "deal with" on my own. My fears, mostly. I prayed a lot and thought that should be enough. I even told myself that I shouldn't be stressed about it (mostly the medical) and to buck up. If I had it to do over again I would be more open to share-not just the facts-but the fears and feelings. Still not maybe with the whole world. but at least with my own family.

I've learned something about either myself or stress. I'm guessing both. If it takes 2 months to go up...it will probably take more than a few moments (or a phone call) to go back down. My expectations were, literally, quite rediculous. and I cracked. I think I cracked because on top of how I'd been feeling for 2 months, I felt like it should all be DONE now. I should be carefree and energetic. And when I wasn't, I wondered what was wrong-and my unmet expectations stopped me from "detoxing".

In the past, I've dealt with a lot of stress. This is definitely not the first time of my life I've felt a load of stress. (For example, when we graduated, moved to WY, had a baby, had $0 to our name, and didn't have a single friend in town....) I think the biggest difference is this stress affected my KIDS. And my family. Not just me. And on top of that most of it had potential to be life changing-in a bad way.

What I'm saying is- i learned a lot. I have grown a lot. and I needed a great big cry to get my attention. Now I can let myself detox in a healthy way.

And I CAN'T wait to get home and get back to "normal" life. And when I say that, don't get me wrong. My kids are still sick, and not everything's perfect back home. But, I do have a lot less on my mind than when we left home!

I just reread this blog-and it isn't saying what I mean at all. I think because I can't put it into words. So i keep starting a new paragraph to try again. I get it now though. That's all that matters. And I feel like now a great weight HAS been lifted...

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I Said A Little Prayer

Today I went shopping in Great Falls...ALL BY MYSELF.
I've never liked shopping alone, but after the craziness of the last month it was just what I needed. As I was driving to Ross I got to thinking about the lump I had removed a week ago. I didn't think about it a whole lot until all the festivities were over and I didn't have distraction. Then every time I moved my arm and felt the incision I wondered. The surgeon had told me NOT to expect results before Wednesday because of the holidays, and his surgery days. So I prayed. During that prayer at some point I said something to the effect of "God, I really just want to know. Could you maybe have the surgeon call me today instead of tomorrow?" It was 4pm.
I went into Ross and as I was trying on some clothes my phone rang. It was the surgeon on his cell phone. He said "Hi Bethany?" "Yes" "I usually don't call on surgery days, but I thought I should call you." slight pause: (Heart fluttering...good news? bad news???? is it GOOD if the surgeon is doing something he normally wouldn't? Or is that bad???? AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!) "I have some good news....."

What an awesome God we serve! He answered my little teeny tiny prayer from way down here among millions of prayers...

Now, one thing you need to know is that at my appointment I asked "So I'll find out if I have cancer or not?" and the surgeon said "Yes, but you will also be given a name for exactly what it is." Cool. So...he says to me "I know I told you there would be a name for what you have...but it's pretty rare, and there really isn't a name for it." Then he rattled off the medically-confusing-not-really-a-name-term for it. He said it's basically where the connecting ligaments/tissues form lumps. This explains why they were so confused as to the location of the lump. Not in the breast. Not in the lymph nodes. Not really anywhere normal.
So there you go. It's almost a new year and my new year's hope is that we won't have to meet a deductible. (However, Kaden's tonsils aren't exactly cooperating with that hope...which is why it isn't a resolution.) :)